I was drowning. Not in a way where you feel at peace. But in a way where the pain aches thru your body and suffocates you. It is ower now. The drowning part I mean. But I can still feel the water in my lungs. And to be honest with you i do not know who i am without it. I believe i am an extremely boring person. So the water is a way to feel up all the empty quiet space in my body. I believe in was even kinder. But maybe that was just because i knew i wasn’t going to be here for long.