I just feel so shitty these days. Roller coaster rides are how I would describe my emotions. I feel like I’m on top of the world at times, but most recently the days where I feel like I’m down in the slums have been plaguing my thoughts and my day-to-day. I’m sick and tired of feeling like this.
At first I tried to rationalise what is going on what is causing me to feel this way. It’s been months now and the same reasons seem to resurface but I am starting to see that they are not the core issue at all. See, when I feel on cloud nine, these reasons actually do well by me. They instead of reasons for me to feel like shit, feed my euphoria.
PUTAIN bro putain I just want things to make sense again so I can move forward. I’m tired and defeated at this point. I am at my wits’ end.