I just feel so shitty these days. Roller coaster rides are how I would describe my emotions. I feel like I’m on top of the world at times, but most recently the days where I feel like I’m down in the slums have been plaguing my thoughts and my day-to-day. I’m sick and tired of feeling like this.
At first I tried to rationalise what is going on what is causing me to feel this way. It’s been months now and the same reasons seem to resurface but I am starting to see that they are not the core issue at all. See, when I feel on cloud nine, these reasons actually do well by me. They instead of reasons for me to feel like shit, feed my euphoria.
PUTAIN bro putain I just want things to make sense again so I can move forward. I’m tired and defeated at this point. I am at my wits’ end.
Let me save you some time:
Get a therapist.
You might be right in that the “left-brain interpreter” explanations could miss a large part of the picture.
I would suggest to look at the body. The Spark in the Machine by Daniel Keown is good at showing how organs are connected to emotions. Darren Schmidt shares a lot of cases where treating physiology solved emotional and psychological problems. Healing is Voltage by Jerry L. Tennant gives a checklist of things to look for.
And if you would rather keep digging for emotions in your head, then Affective Neuroscience by Jaak Panksepp is a valuable stepping stone.