maybe I should be trying harder. I feel like I feel stupid for feeling this way. It’s all my fault anyway. The anxiety won’t leave, the stress won’t leave. im not enough im not reaching my expectations. I feel like such a failure. I’m not doing anything and I cant do anything. I cant force myself to get up. feeling so alone. I cant control anything. I cant control how I feel. its like so much chaos is going on in my head.